I fixed some things on my first painting so it looks better that it originally did. It feels good to get back to doing art because it's so peaceful and I can just paint and think about whatever I want. I just plug in my headphones and chill out and listen to music so that no one can distract me. I love not talking to anyone and being able to isolate myself from everything that's going on. I can't wait until I move out of my house because I'll finally be on my own in control of my own life.

I got so much farther on my painting in the past couple of days. I actually have motivation to do something! I love painting so much and now it actually looks good. The more I paint the better I get and it's so nice. I painted the foreground in and now I just have to paint the focal point tree now and then I'll be done. Hopefully I don't mess anything up so it doesn't ruin the painting.

My first painting is really good for not painting for a solid year. Some of the things in it still frustrate me because some things don't look the way I want them to but I don't know how to fix it. I'm going to need to practice a little more before we actually start working on our AP stuff. It'll be nice too because when I paint that is the only time I can really get away from everyone in my house and just zone out on what I'm doing.

Relearning

Getting back into painting is hard when you don't do it for a year. When I started my summer homework it was like I had to relearn how to do everything. My first painting of the summer is terrible I have to search how to paint things so that they look normal. It's so frustrating not knowing how to paint anything. Everything slowly came back to me but I'm still working on getting back to where I was two years ago. I'm terrible and it makes me angry. I know I am better than what I'm putting on the canvas. I seriously thought to myself how I was going to make it through AP Studio Art if I couldn't even paint anymore. This year is going to be hard